I cried today
But that’s ok
You see my past caught me out
I thought I’d moved on
Always assuming I was strong
Turns out I was wrong
I went back in time when I felt vulnerable and weak
Back to a place when life seemed so dark and bleak
I could choose to not revisit the past
I could leave it where it belongs
But something inside me needs to rewrite all the wrongs
A need to make sense of a past
In order for me to clear a way forward
But I’m working out this isn’t always fucking straightforward
I know thinking this way will get me into trouble
So, every so often I have to give me head a wobble and pop the self-pity bubble
I know deep down that once I’ve drawn that line in the past
I will be able to stay in the present
Which feels alot more fucking pleasant
I’m learning that in order to continue
I need to practice some more self-compassion
Something that of late feels like it’s gone out of fashion
It was time to have a word wi me sen
So, I gave me sen a big cuddle
Told me sen that I’ll be alright
And reminded me sen that there are others are going through worst plights
I’ve just just strayed off course
And on reflection life could be worse
I’ve come so far and I ain’t going back
Just for today I need to give me sen some slack
I took some time out
I had a word wi me sen
And finally found some of me lost yen
Just a reminder that #Shithappens – even to the best of us
Love Tracey
#UnapologeticWriter
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