Facebook had just asked me – What’s on your mind, so i had a think about it…
As I flicked through my memories, I realise such much has changed
Its been a long xxcking year and yet, i’m still here
Only eight years ago, Sheffield was covered in snow
The year before I was stuffing my face at the Bay of Bengal
Four years ago, I’d challenged myself to a full day of No SWEARING
But it didn’t last long and by the end of the day I’d past xxcking caring
The year after that, I was complaining of being fat!
On this day a year ago COVID was all over the news
I was heading into work only to be sent back home
It’s now 2021
Where the xxck has the last year gone?
I could never have predicted what the future had in store
In the early days I felt restricted and conflicted
At first it was strange, being forced to change
Isolated from family and friends
But it was a means to an end
We all needed to do our part, even though at times it broke my heart
We were all in a global pandemic, where nobody could hide
And in the blink of an eye another year has passed by
Each lockdown has been hard
I found myself having to dig deeper inside
Often the fear of the unknown left me feeling isolated and alone
I would allow myself to wallow for a while consumed with self-pity
But it just wasn’t me AND it certainly wasn’t xxcking pretty
I had to have regular words wi me sen
And reasoned that Instead of moping, I needed to find some better ways of coping
I used my time wisely to focus on shit I’d been neglecting to make time for reconnecting
I started by staying away from the TV, which gave me more time to focus on me
I’d take long walks alone to contemplate life – a perfect opportunity to switch off from all the xxxxing strife
I picked up my pen and started to write, each new word offered up a new insight
I learned to accept that whilst change can make us feel vulnerable, that change is also inevitable.
This year I have been constantly reminded, that we have two choices in life
We can either bury our heads in the sand or we can make a stand
I chose the latter, to take the rough with the smooth
I mean I’ve got xxck all else to do or to lose
For me COVID has been another stark reminder
None of us knows what’s around the corner
I hope that one year from now
I’ll have figured life out, some way, somehow
But just for today
I will focus on the here and now
Love Tracey
