Discovering myself after Substance Abuse It wasn’t until 18 months after coming out of the mental institution from drug-induced psychosis that my recovery or discovery journey truly began. That being said, looking back, I didn’t have the time or the appropriate support at the time. I’d recently left a coercive and controlling relationship. I was […]
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Woman – There is more to you than you think
Woman – There is more to you than you think The Bedtime fairy tales were engraved into her younger self’s head Just the thought of being alone filled her with dread Afraid of being left on the shelf she always put other’s needs before herself She craved other people’s acceptance to help her […]
If they are your mate they’ll wait
I made some amazing friendships during my using/dealing days but one of the most complex parts in my early recovery was stepping away from some of those friendships. This was made worse by knowing that they weren’t bad people; in fact, it was quite the opposite. They never gave up on me when I fucked […]
Don’t wait until it’s too late
At the time of writing this, I don’t feel sad, I feel angry. It’s always sad when you lose someone, it’s part of life, we all go at some point, but every now and then the loss can hit you hard and this loss is no exception. Yesterday I was contacted out of the blue […]
Writing has opened doors within me that I never knew existed
You would think writing a memoir would be easy. After all, you have all the facts, but it’s not, hence why it’s taking so friggin long. I used to put loads of pressure on myself by setting deadlines, especially after someone asked, “when’s the book gonna be ready?”. But I’m learning that my writing cannot be […]
My problem was never about the drugs, it was me all along
People often ask me ‘how would you describe your recovery journey?’ and I always describe my recovery as being’ like a discovery of the self’. It’s taken a lot of soul searching and self-honesty to be the person that I am today. let me take you back… For years I was preoccupied with trying to […]
Ever heard of ARBD? (Alcohol-Related Brain Damage)– Nah, me neither
Well that was until recently We are familiar with terms such as intoxication or drunkenness; however, these terms are rarely associated or linked to brain damage. I had heard about Korsakoff syndrome, a chronic memory disorder associated with alcoholism. All the signs were there with dad, but he was never formally diagnosed. Moreover, over the […]
What about the 89% – A professional and very personal victory
Writing has become my go-to companion, my friend. It helps me make sense of this fucked up world. The reality is that some days are more complicated than others, and there are some days I could throw in the towel. But today is a good day. In fact, I am still trying to process it, […]
RIP Lego Man – Gone but never forgotten
I have lost count of the people I have come across whose lives have been directly or indirectly affected by addiction. Whether it be from families to communities plagued by drug-related crime, which is often complicated by the knowledge that those committing crimes are often victims themselves. It’s like a vicious cycle with no end […]
Befriending and taming my Evil Twin – aka Ego
Imposter syndrome was the topic of conversation at this week’s MMM writing group. I chuckled to myself because she is someone I know well. I would go as far as to say that I used to refer to her as my evil twin, aka my ego. She would be that little voice in my head […]
