A True Story He called it love But it didn’t feel like love to her To the outside world He was the perfect guy It was like he could walk on water But unbeknown to her She was just another lamb to the slaughter Like butter wouldn’t melt She had to disguise how she really […]
Category: Poetry
My poetry
There’s a saying that “Home is where the heart is” – But what if your heart is broken?
I recently signed up for a project that Shelter is running. It’s part of World Homeless Day on the 10th of October. It has been years since I found myself homeless, but I wanted to use my lived experience to help others. There are about eight of us who have been brought together via […]
COVID one year on
Facebook had just asked me – What’s on your mind, so i had a think about it… As I flicked through my memories, I realise such much has changed Its been a long xxcking year and yet, i’m still here Only eight years ago, Sheffield was covered in snow The year before I […]
Growing up on the Valley
Growing up on the Valley I was brought up on the Valley Back in the day when I was a scally I’m proud of mi working class roots And my life on the estates The Valley is the place I met some lifelong mates Back in the day when we fought wi our fists […]
Taming & unchaining shame
It’s been with me for years, I could best describe shame as being unable to say what I really wanted to say, suffocated by other people’s opinions or expectations. Sometimes my mind felt it felt like I was a contortionist, my thoughts and emotions were permanently being twisted into what I now understand to be […]
Life after caring – The void
Writing is my therapy, it’s my escape, a place to think, without interruption. Particularly lately what with the incessant negative news and views about society, COVID, BLM the economy, sometimes it’s easy to forget that amongst all these issues is that there are still millions of people who are afflicted by addiction, but that […]
Happy Birthday
50 Today Where the fuck has the time gone, Wrinkly old me I’m still the same bird Just a better version of the person I’ve always wanted to be […]
Yeah I’m clean but my poetry’s not!
Emj is a talented artist and has come a long way from the very first time I met her at one of our recovery months, ride for recovery events, she was halfway through her detox and staying at Phoenix House. The other day I caught up with her, she has been living independently now […]
Statistics suggest that someone in addiction can have the best chance of recovery when their families are educated and in recovery too, but be warned there are no guarantees.
When dad came back into my life I could have never foreseen or predicted the journey I was about to take, I thought my addiction took me to dark places within myself, but dads addiction opened a new door to new fucking stratosphere of sadness and pain, but this time the option to turn […]
I won’t be silenced
A few weeks ago I was pulled at work about a comment I had made at work, apparently, it wasn’t appropriate, basically, it wasn’t the right time or place to have shared my opinion. A wave of shame smothered me but being compliant, at the time I took it on the chin and apologised. […]
