My cup was always half empty In fact, it was bone dry I would carry the weight of the world on my shoulders And held onto resentments the size of boulders I turned to drugs seeking absolution That was until I started searching for different solutions Instead of blaming everyone else and started […]
Category: Poetry
My poetry
If they are your mate they’ll wait
I made some amazing friendships during my using/dealing days but one of the most complex parts in my early recovery was stepping away from some of those friendships. This was made worse by knowing that they weren’t bad people; in fact, it was quite the opposite. They never gave up on me when I fucked […]
Don’t wait until it’s too late
At the time of writing this, I don’t feel sad, I feel angry. It’s always sad when you lose someone, it’s part of life, we all go at some point, but every now and then the loss can hit you hard and this loss is no exception. Yesterday I was contacted out of the blue […]
Pitfalls of Peer Support In Recovery
There is something magical about peer support groups in recovery but beware of the pitfalls. Walking in or logging onto your first support group can feel daunting and scary. But the benefits associated with them far outweigh the negatives. Support groups can be a great place for individuals in early recovery to explore and rebuild […]
The Time I Hit Rock Bottom
At the time I was seeking self-absolution The drugs were a perfect solution I was wrapped up in my own mind The drugs helped me to unwind At the time I really didn’t like myself I felt persecuted by everyone else Deep down I was desperate to feel loved And craved a loving hug I […]
Dear Dad
Your addiction came out of the blue I never saw it coming There were times I felt like running But I couldn’t and I didn’t To stay or to walk away My decision varied every day One day I’d be standing my ground And the next my resolve could not be found Even the days […]
Woman
Woman She carries the weight of the world on her shoulders But you would never know it She has no time for self-pity She has still so much to do She is more than the label Gifted by society She is more than just a mum Or a shoulder to cry on She is more […]
Rock bottom
Rock bottom A place for the forgotten It’s renown for being bleak Usually reserved for the lost and weak But I would disagree Rock bottom, Isn’t for the forgotten It’s where people have drawn lines in the sand And decide to take a stand It’s a place to recharge the soul To reassess life goals […]
Gratitude after Addiction
I give up you won Playing with you stopped bring fun At first you played nice But you never named your price I couldn’t see it then But you were always one step ahead Always messing with my head Thought I was strong But boy was I wrong Spellbound […]
I answer to myself and nobody else
I don’t follow a god For me it just feels odd I believe there is a higher power But I’m not sure what it is? All I know is that I exist I’ve learned over the years to trust my own intuition Instead of following a religious mission I don’t […]
