At the time I was seeking self-absolution The drugs were a perfect solution I was wrapped up in my own mind The drugs helped me to unwind At the time I really didn’t like myself I felt persecuted by everyone else Deep down I was desperate to feel loved And craved a loving hug I […]
Dear Dad
Your addiction came out of the blue I never saw it coming There were times I felt like running But I couldn’t and I didn’t To stay or to walk away My decision varied every day One day I’d be standing my ground And the next my resolve could not be found Even the days […]
Why I will never stop talking about Addiction
Today marks the end of National Alcohol awareness Week, I’ve done my bit (I hope) shared some snippets of my personal experience of being at the harsh end of alcoholism. It’s been years since I was in the thick of my own addiction and drowning in my attempts to rescue dad from his. We can […]
Woman
Woman She carries the weight of the world on her shoulders But you would never know it She has no time for self-pity She has still so much to do She is more than the label Gifted by society She is more than just a mum Or a shoulder to cry on She is more […]
Rock bottom
Rock bottom A place for the forgotten It’s renown for being bleak Usually reserved for the lost and weak But I would disagree Rock bottom, Isn’t for the forgotten It’s where people have drawn lines in the sand And decide to take a stand It’s a place to recharge the soul To reassess life goals […]
Gratitude after Addiction
I give up you won Playing with you stopped bring fun At first you played nice But you never named your price I couldn’t see it then But you were always one step ahead Always messing with my head Thought I was strong But boy was I wrong Spellbound […]
I answer to myself and nobody else
I don’t follow a god For me it just feels odd I believe there is a higher power But I’m not sure what it is? All I know is that I exist I’ve learned over the years to trust my own intuition Instead of following a religious mission I don’t […]
A Modern-Day Fairy Tale
A True Story He called it love But it didn’t feel like love to her To the outside world He was the perfect guy It was like he could walk on water But unbeknown to her She was just another lamb to the slaughter Like butter wouldn’t melt She had to disguise how she really […]
There’s a saying that “Home is where the heart is” – But what if your heart is broken?
I recently signed up for a project that Shelter is running. It’s part of World Homeless Day on the 10th of October. It has been years since I found myself homeless, but I wanted to use my lived experience to help others. There are about eight of us who have been brought together via […]
How to Fall back in love with running
In the absence of friends, there are always strangers. I have a love-hate relationship with social media, and I wouldn’t normally advocate someone reaching out online for support, but I did earlier this year. So here I am I wanted to share my experience with you. I also want to use this blog to […]
